Is totally balls. I hate when I do it. And you know what I'm procrastinating? Writing down information from like 5 worksheets onto a cheat sheet for my final in Anatomy tomorrow. So ridiculous. Hahahah.
Anyways, I'm awake right now because I was too sick to go to school and thus slept all day. After I finish this blog, I'm probably just going to be on Tumblr for awhile and just not work on my cheat sheet for some dumb reason. -.-'
I keep thinking about Florida. Just at random times. Sometimes I make jokes about it and pretend it doesn't bother me. Other times, I just tear up and sort of freak out. And then you have the times where I'm alone and just thinking and I break down. It sucks so bad. :/ I hate thinking about moving. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. In case you couldn't tell, I hate it.
Oh well, I don't feel like writing a whole bunch, but I really wanted to update. So there you go, for now.
Until later,
Jessica
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
The biggest bomb shell of my life was dropped
about 3 hours ago.
Let me give you some background on my life before I tell you what it is.
I have never, I mean NEVER, moved. I have lived in the same house my whole life, I've gone though the same school district since Kindergarten. I still see people I have known since elementary school. I have always lived in this same little town and have known the same people for years. It was difficult for me to befriend people in middle school and those people I met in 7th and 8th grade are mostly still with me to this day. I have had a few friend loses, but nothing like losing a bunch from moving.
So you'll imagine how life shattering it is to hear you may possibly be moving. And not moving just a city over, but moving ACROSS THE COUNTRY. So here's the run down:
My dad's current job is going to be GONE by June 30th. So naturally, he has to find a new job ASAP so he isn't unemployed since he provides most of the income for my household. Well, apparently, one of the jobs he is applying for is in Tampa, Florida. We would be moving across the country if he were to get this job. I can't handle that. I'm a junior so I would have to start fresh my SENIOR year. I did terrible with making friends in middle school, how would I do in a whole other state my senior year?? I know, I've changed since then, but I'm scared I'll go back into my shell if we move.
As you can tell, I am extremely upset right now. What makes it worse is that I am an EXTREMELY emotional person on a daily basis, so this bombshell has my life turned upside down. I'm trying to look on the bright side if we move, but I can't help but think of all the plans I had for next year in Covina. I have been planning out the perfect senior year for months. As soon as everything started to seem really good, I get hit with this. My last year in high school might be spent as far away from the people I love as possible. I'm devastated.
We are still not sure if the move is final or not, but as soon as I find out, I'll update.
Please pray, hope, knock on wood, for my dad to find a job in LA or emotional support if we have to move.
I'd write more, but I'm a wreck right now.
Until later,
Jessica.
Let me give you some background on my life before I tell you what it is.
I have never, I mean NEVER, moved. I have lived in the same house my whole life, I've gone though the same school district since Kindergarten. I still see people I have known since elementary school. I have always lived in this same little town and have known the same people for years. It was difficult for me to befriend people in middle school and those people I met in 7th and 8th grade are mostly still with me to this day. I have had a few friend loses, but nothing like losing a bunch from moving.
So you'll imagine how life shattering it is to hear you may possibly be moving. And not moving just a city over, but moving ACROSS THE COUNTRY. So here's the run down:
My dad's current job is going to be GONE by June 30th. So naturally, he has to find a new job ASAP so he isn't unemployed since he provides most of the income for my household. Well, apparently, one of the jobs he is applying for is in Tampa, Florida. We would be moving across the country if he were to get this job. I can't handle that. I'm a junior so I would have to start fresh my SENIOR year. I did terrible with making friends in middle school, how would I do in a whole other state my senior year?? I know, I've changed since then, but I'm scared I'll go back into my shell if we move.
As you can tell, I am extremely upset right now. What makes it worse is that I am an EXTREMELY emotional person on a daily basis, so this bombshell has my life turned upside down. I'm trying to look on the bright side if we move, but I can't help but think of all the plans I had for next year in Covina. I have been planning out the perfect senior year for months. As soon as everything started to seem really good, I get hit with this. My last year in high school might be spent as far away from the people I love as possible. I'm devastated.
We are still not sure if the move is final or not, but as soon as I find out, I'll update.
Please pray, hope, knock on wood, for my dad to find a job in LA or emotional support if we have to move.
I'd write more, but I'm a wreck right now.
Until later,
Jessica.
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